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In God’s absolutely incredibly perfect timing, I just created a Twitter account.  I saw a tweet from The Gospel Coalition @TGC: Your job is God’s assignment (by @JohnPiper): ow.ly/JXUjn

I felt badly and just apologized to God for not trusting in Him.  I haven’t (yet) read John Piper’s article.  The title was enough to apologize and then to start paying abundant and heartfelt thanks to God for this.

Must learn to just stop being frustrated and to JUST TRUST.

Let’s go back one day.  Yesterday was an extremely frustrating day at work – or not-work.  I work/get paid for a 40 hour week.  But, there’s maybe 10 hours or so of work to get me through the week – my boss doesn’t know how to utilize me.  So, I end up reading John Piper’s pdf’s of his books.  Yesterday, I was frustrated because I felt a need to contribute.  I went into my boss’ office and asked him what he was working on and he was reviewing a contract – I suggested that I could give it the first “go-over” for him.  He said “no.”  Well, my nose got out of joint.  I explained that I felt like I don’t contribute.  I told him that someday (or not) he’d realize how much easier I can make his life.  I was feeling desperate to contribute and to be of service.

This morning, I prayed about my work situation when I got up and then also handwrote a prayer as well.  Handwriting prayers isn’t something I normally do – I may start though.  This is my handwritten prayer: “God, please fill me completely with Holy Spirit and let me feel Holy Spirit in me fully and completely. I need to feel a complete filling so there will be no room for any other emotions. I was extremely frustrated at work yesterday and there is some frustration today. I am underutilized at work. Please let me see your plan for me being here so I can work to fill your plan.”

From the sounds of the title of John Piper’s article, “Your job is God’s assignment,” that will speak directly to exactly what I’m going through.

Yesterday, I was so frustrated I swore – yup, the first time this year.  Prior to becoming a Christian, swearing was part of my daily vocabulary.  So, not swearing that long is huge.  Swearing shows just how frustrated I was.

On the bright side, I didn’t use the “L” word – “Luck.”  Ok … this is another topic but I’ll go in very quickly.  I look at “luck” as a swear word because it puts things out of God’s control and into the world of chaotic chance.  So, I struck the “L” word from my vocabulary close to a year ago (after a sermon I heard).  It just doesn’t seem right to use it when I’m doing my best to put my trust in God and God alone.

I felt so giddy when I saw the tweet from The Gospel Coalition.  Seeing it filled me up and made me overflow with joy, love, peace and trust (in God).  This is God’s absolutely perfect timing, letting me know that I’m on the right track – more confirmation for me – yet again.